Survey says...

Oh, hello. Didn't notice you there. Been distracted with this thing called "life" the past 2 1/2 months. Amazing how as my clinical responsibilities tail off, other things find a way to take their place.

Anyways, time to share the verdict. As I had said before, I was a late switch onto the ENT track (during the first half of my third year) and I approached the match process with more than a bit of apprehension. I was a good student, sure. I had the necessary board scores. But I hadn't set up any free clinics in Africa or presidented any associations or covered my walls with awards from medical school. I think I can fairly call myself a fairly "average" ENT applicant. That being said, I believe myself to be a very likable person, a hard worker, have a good rapport with patients, and I tend to be efficient & pick up things fairly quickly. As a result, I feel like the feedback I received from residents was that I was someone they would absolutely love to work with, and that I would interview very well. I think my LORs represented that fairly well.

I think it was difficult for me coming from a medical school in which a lot of students go into primary care and very few (4 in the last 5 years) go into ENT. I felt like I didn't have a good roadmap paved by former grads like some of my classmates did. I applied to 45 programs, which felt like an extraordinary amount of programs compared to my peds/FM/IM classmates who were applying to 15-20. In hindsight, I probably would have applied to 15-20 more.

In the end, I was probably lucky, but I net a good number of interview offers, and attended 11 interviews. The ones I did not attend were primarily due to conflict with other interview dates and inability to get to the destination program on time. So I basically accepted all comers. I ranked all 11 programs I interviewed at, because, on a whole, I was blown away by the quality of ENT programs across the board - seems like there really are no bad programs out there.

Making the rank list was incredibly difficult. I felt like I was perseverating over minor shades of gray concerning issues that really aren't that important for the quality of your training. But you need to sort out programs in some way, so I had to choose some points which were more important to me than others. The most important thing driving my rank list was the surgical volume and quality of surgical training. Overall, when I asked myself "what is my real goal in residency?", being comfortable with performing the breadth of ENT procedures was my #1 priority. Along those lines, I also ranked programs higher if they had a well rounded faculty and a good track record of sending graduates into both fellowship and private practicen and departments that were stable and growing. Second most important was the intangible camaraderie I felt amongst the residents and with the residents and staff. I favored programs where I could see myself having fun at work over programs where the residents tended to work then go home to their lives. The size and atmosphere of the city of the program also played a factor. Less important to me was weather, distance from home, cost of living, call schedule, etc.

I consider myself a fairly even-keeled person, and I didn't work myself up too much over the whole match process. But the week before match week, my id kicked in. I had nightmares I didn't match because I didn't certify my rank order list. Dreams I matched at my #1. Nightmares I matched at my home program but was failing as a resident. The subconscious is a crazy thing. The Monday of match week was one of the most nauseating mornings of my life. I'm lucky I am on a clinical rotation and had rounds to distract me, but from 8:30-9am, I was dreading the buzz of my iPhone on my belt. Finally, the buzz came and it took me a good 30 seconds to work up the courage to open the email.

"Congratulations, you have successfully matched!"

I don't know if what I felt at that moment was elation, excitement, or relief - probably a combination of all three. But it felt like a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders. I didn't care where I ended up - I had matched into ENT. The rest of the week was a blur. I actually slept like a baby Wednesday night, unlike some of my classmates. But when Thursday morning arrived, the nausea returned. Turns out, I DID care where I would be spending the next half a decade plus of my life. The 30 minutes between 9 and 9:30am, mingling with friends and classmates, felt like 3 hours.

The moment came, and they opened the door to our "match room" where all our envelopes were located. I got my envelope and shimmied out of the cattle drive. I held the envelope for what felt like several minutes, then opened it slowly.

I had matched at my #2 program.

My response went somewhat in the sequence of shock -> excitement -> shock -> doubt -> shock -> excitement & doubt. I hadn't really considered the possibility of matching to my #2 program a whole lot, because I saw it as somewhat of a reach for an applicant of my stature. Frankly, it seemed out of my league. So, internalizing the reality that - (1) I had matched there (2) I was actually going there (3) I was moving there in 3 months - took more than a while to process. Frankly, I think I am still processing it. But the more it sinks in, the more excited I become.

So, yeah. All those hours spent slaving away over syllabi the first two years. The grueling days spent studying for Step 1. The mindless times spent crunching charts of research in front of my laptop. The long days and late nights of third year. My sub-i and aways. The pre-rounds, rounds, and presentations. The writeups and scut. That f'ing personal statement. The countless hours spent on airplanes and countless nights spent in hotel rooms. All of it brought me to this point. The finality of it is daunting, in a way. But in 3 months, I will be moving thousands of miles away from my home, my friends and family, to start the process of becoming a physician and surgeon for the next half decade of my life. There is something incredibly intimidating and exhilarating about that reality.

Still alive, on Q3 call.

In the surgical and trauma ICU. So busy I haven't even submitted a preliminary rank list yet. Gulp.

Will recap interview season soon. Sounds like a good call night project, as long the patients stop trying to die.

2k11: Things I've Learned On The Interview Trail

Long hiatus from blogging. Hard to find time for much on the interview trail when you're constantly switching time zones, packing/repacking the suitcase, and hustling to catch the next flight. I took a true "vacation" over the holidays and checked out from anything academic... first time in over 2 years.

Anyways, with a month spent traveling, thought I'd past along some tips from my own experiences and experiences of classmates and fellow applicants:
1. If at all humanly possible, downsize to only a check on bag
Yes, checked luggage does get lost, and it does happen to medical students. The risk of your luggage going lost increases exponentially if your flight gets delayed, or you have 1+ connections, and the last thing you want is to arrive in a city without your suit. Trust me, it happens every year and it happened to a few people I know this year. So go to the store and get those little 3 oz toiletries, and make it work. If you're having trouble fitting everything, wear your suit on the plane. The peace of mind is worth it.

2. TripIt.com
Interviews can be a logistical nightmare with all the airline flights, hotel confirmations, car rentals, etc. I was lucky I stumbled across this little gem, tripit.com. It allows you to create individual "trips" for each of your interviews and keep track off all your flight information, confirmation codes, addresses of interview dinners, and even gives you maps. They have an iPhone and Droid and you can access it online from any Smartphone or laptop. Plus it syncs so you don't need web access to retrieve your info. It's been a lifesaver as far as keeping everything in one place and being able to pull it up at a moment's notice. Plus it's free.

3. Research your hotels
The "recommended" hotels provided by programs are not all nice places to stay (learned that the hard way), and often are not the cheapest or closest places. Before you book anywhere, google the hotel and read some of the reviews to weed out the stinkers. You also want to make sure you are at a place with an iron (so you aren't crumpled on interview day) and internet access (for checking into flights and for sanity). If you have a rental car or there are limited hotels in the area around your interview, you can often get away with using hotline.com to get a deal as well. At one interview, there was only one hotel by the medical campus, and even with the "medical discount" it was still $100+ a night. I did a hotline search for the area, found the hotel (even though it was hidden, I knew it was the one) and was able to book for $68 a night. These little savings add up in an expensive endeavor.

4. When possible, book extra time in a city when you visit
It's impossible to get a feel for a city when you're around only for your interview day. When possible, I'd try to get in earlier the day before or stay the night after and see the city a bit. Plus, this whole process is supposed to be kind of FUN. It's way more fun when you have time to explore a bit and try out some cool little restaurants or walk around a downtown of a city you've never been in before.

Along the same lines, if you have an opportunity to stay with friends, take it up in a heartbeat. On one trek, I had a 4 day layoff between two interviews and didn't want to fly the 2000 miles home in between, so I made a quick jump up to a city 500 miles north and stayed with a friend I hadn't seen in 7 years. Made the trip much more enjoyable and I saved some money on airfare in the process.

5. If you're going to drink, tread carefully.
Many of the social dinners are open bars, and occasionally the residents and/or faculty will take you out beyond that. Don't be afraid to have fun, but also tread carefully. The last thing you want to be known as is the applicant who was sloppy or did something inappropriate. I have seen this happen at several of the social events. Interviews are exhausting and stressful, so feel free to have a drink or two, but know your limits.

6. Take notes
After a couple of interviews, the places start to blend together. Use the flight out of the city as an excuse to take 30 minutes and go stream-of-consciousness on a tablet of paper. It helps when you're trying to remember your impressions from places weeks later. It gets old, but at the same time I have no idea who I'd make me rank list without it.

7. Exercise and hydrate
When changing time zones a lot, your body gets really confused. When sitting on planes a lot, your muscles atrophy. When eating airport food and drinking airport coffee, you gain weight and get dehydrated. Bring along some running shoes and workout clothes and hit the pavement or the hotel gym when possible. You'll feel better and sleep better. And trust me, you want to be rested for your interview day. I've had two interviews already where I was absolutely exhausted the day of and between the powerpoint presentations and repetitive questions, it was very, very difficult to stay locked in. Do everything you can to help your energy level.

8. Relax
90% of my interviews have been very casual and very conversational. Even the more difficult ones have been because of interesting personalities or "behavior-based" questions. Even the curveballs have been fairly soft, so try to relax when the interviews come up. After the first couple interviews, you'll be in a flow and already have a rote response for 90% of the questions that will come your way.

Four interviews left then it's time to create my rank list. CRAZY.

Friendly Reminders

One of the nice things about traveling so much is it has afforded me the opportunity to read-for-pleasure for the first time in several years. I just finished digesting this 500 page behemoth:

A fictional tale of twins born to a disgraced nun slash scrub nurse in Ethiopia, the tale follows the narrative of one of the boys as he grew up in Ethiopia to two physician parents working in a small mission hospital. The protagonist follows in his parents footsteps of medicine, ultimately coming to America to train as a general surgeon.

The novel is penned by Dr. Verghese, an infectious disease doctor at Stanford who, like his characters, was also born in Ethiopia. A powerful read, with an very engaging plot and many poignant moments intertwined into the story.

Perhaps the most interesting parts of the story for me where when the main character was himself on the path of medical training, both in his youth and then in medical school proper. There were some very profound statements Verghese used to describe the "transformation into a physician" and his own personal viewpoint on care of the patient. I found most of them surprisingly on-point despite the fact that the author is not a surgeon himself.

To be a good surgeon, you need to commit to being a good surgeon. It's as simple as that. You need to be meticulous in the small things, not just in the operating room, but outside. A good surgeon would want to redo this knot. You're going to tie thousands of knots in your lifetime. If you tie each one as well as humanly possible, you'll experience fewer complications. The big things in surgery depend on the little things.

I take heart from my fellow physicians who come to me when they themselves must suffer the knife. They know that Marion Stone will be as involved after the surgery as before and during. They know I have no use for surgical euphamisms such as "When in doubt, cut it out" or "Why wait when you can operate" other than for how reliably they reveal the shallowest intellects in our field. My father says "The operation with the best outcome is the one you decide not to do." Knowing when not to operate, knowing when I am in over my head-that kind of talent, that kind of "brilliance," goes unheralded.

I found the read quite inspiring as times. Too often in medical training, we get caught up in the drudgery of the day to day. Wake up, drink coffee, round, do work, go home, read, sleep. It's refreshing to feel inspired, because I can admit it is not often enough that I feel such as I trudge through my days.

Interviews are going well. Done with three, with four and five to come this week. My traveling karma has been good so far. No missed connections, flights on time. It's great to travel and experience new cities I haven't visited before. Gives me an appreciation for the vastness of America, but also for how similar we all are in ways that are not readily apparent. I'm also getting a better sense for what I am looking for in a program, but know that when it comes time to form a rank list, it's going to be insanely difficult.

That's it for now, off at the airport at 4:30am again tomorrow. Wake up, drink coffee, don suit, board plane... but then, luckily, I get a chance to reflect on where I am and what has brought me to this point. In the words of Dr. Verghese Life is like that. You live it forward, but understand it backward.

Leaving On A Jetplane

Last night, got to say adios to my plastics "sub-i" and scurry home to pack my belongings.

Today, I embarked on the interview trail that will take me (as of now) to 11 different states and several thousand miles. I won't see another patient until February of 2011 (which is weird to think about... 2 months in medical school without medicine?) Over the next 30 days, I'll spend 18 of them away from home. Then in January another 4 interviews. Whew.

I'm sure there will be some things learned the hard way along the way... I'll be sure to chronicle the foibles and follies here.

Sid Meier's Hospital

So I'm on Plastic Surgery this month. Excuse me, Plastic & RECONSTRUCTIVE Surgery. Though I think it's fair to say the department here earns that title as they do a fair bit of reconstruction amongst the stripperplasties and wrinkles-be-gonesies. It's strange being back on an academic surgical service after a break of over 3 months, but refreshing at the same time as the duties of the medical student on said services of academia (list updating, prerounding, hastily presenting, obscure pimping) are warm and familiar to me. Like a well worn sweatshirt or something. But the hours still suck.

We had a really interesting person on the census the past while - the whole package, interesting medical case and interesting personality. The guy was tackled by a buddy of his and broke a rib. Being the regular dust-on-the-boots American that he is, he didn't come to the ED but rather was just going to deal with the pain. Problem was, he was a nice guy, and since bad things only happen to nice guys, the rib pierced his pleura and soon enough he was in the hospital whether he liked it or not with a rip roaring empyema. One lobectomy, a lat flap, and a couple chest tubes later, he found himself parked on the floor slowly biding his time until he was given the blessings of the great doctors to go home. The healing was slow and he was nearing 2 months on service when I rotated on.

Of course he felt well enough, and rather than bore himself with watching his chest tube output, every day when we rolled through the room in the clusterfuck that is surgery rounds, he would be clicking away on his laptop, engrossed in a computer game. Now despite my rugged and masculine exterior, I am quite the computer nerd. Growing up in the glory days of DOS, I spent many an hour of my youth tinkering away at the computer keyboard with classics such as X-Wing, Doom, and Mechwarrior. Like like many things of youth, these hobbies have slowly been eroded away by the responsibilities of growing up. So on rounds we were much more focused on said chest tubes than what was on the computer screen.

Finally, after a few days on service, the chief resident glances up from the patient's incision and asks "Are you playing Civilization???"

The junior looks up from the chart to add "Hey, I love Civilization."

Intern: "What version? I haven't played 5 yet."

From my n=1 experience, I can now say that all medical students and residents have played Civilization. I'm not sure what that says about our demographic, but the computer nerd in me grinned internally.

Sure enough, this past weekend we were rounding with the attending on call, and our fearless world leader slash conquerer was getting ready to be discharged home. We roll into the room and there he is, clicking away at his laptop like always. He's excited to go home. We make small talk. Finally, the attending was bent over glancing at the site of the last chest tube, when she comments "Is that Civilization? I love that game!"

Somewhere, Sid Meier is smiling.

These Healing Hands

It's a reality in medicine that sometimes your patients die, and patients generally do not take exception to this fact if they happen to be cared for by a medical student. Some deaths can be more difficult than others as a student, depending on how well you got to know the patient beforehand or the circumstances of their death. Throughout my third year of medical school, I had several patients who I was caring for pass away while I was on service. Generally, these deaths were of one of two varieties:
(1) A healthy individual crashes and burns, a code is called, and we try our damndest for hours to fight the inevitable tide of death. Eventually the code is called, the team collapses in exhaustion, but there is a certain amount of solace to be taken in knowing that we tried everything.

(2) An individual with end stage x disease, who has been playing ding-dong-ditch at Death's front door for far to long, finally catches Death as he/she is walking by the front door in a bath robe and passes quietly in the night. News of these deaths comes during the AM handoffs and is generally met with a general sense of "Damn." but part of your psyche had already begun stacking the sandbags, knowing full well that your dying patient was, well, dying.

I had another, unique experience with death while on my neurology rotation. We had been consulted on an elderly woman admitted with altered mental status, in the classic CYA consult "rule/out stroke" that elderly patients with AMS tend to collect as they pass through the ED. I originally went to examine her with my attending in the AM, to find a frail looking woman, eyes open staring directly at the ceiling, unresponsive to anything in the room around her. She was altered (frankly, encephalopathic), but we did a full exam anyways and determined that she most likely did not have a stroke. Her breathing was shallow, raspy, and moist, a death gurgle of sorts as she was having difficulty handling her secretions. Labs would show a CO2 of >150... the likely culprit of her current stuporous state.

We weighed in our opinion and were off to clinic for the day. When the late afternoon rolled around, I decided to check back up on her, anticipating that after the requisite therapy for her COPD exacerbation, she would be doing much better. Luckily, I decided to glance at the chart before entering the room, and found a note from the medicine team "Discussed situation and prognosis with family. Family wishes DNR/DNI, palliative care consult."

I enter to find her much as she was that morning. Eyes open, staring blankly at the ceiling, still unresponsive. The late afternoon tends to be quiet in this wing of the hospital, and it was just her and I and the setting sun through the hospital window. Her raspy breathing penetrated harshly through the serenity of the moment. Like a good medical student, I set to task repeating the neurological exam, looking for any differences from the morning. Dolls eye test. Corneal reflex. Tap on the tendons. Check tone. It is just as I remove her sock to perform a babinski exam that I notice a subtle change in the room. It takes me a moment to realize that the throaty death rattle, my patient's weakened attempts at oxygen exchange... had stopped.

The first thought to race across my mind was "Oh shit!" I don't know how, but I remembered at that moment her do-not-resuscitate status, which fortunately prevented me from running into the hallways like an idiot yelling "Call a code!!!!" I watched as the color rapidly drained from her face, and stepped out of the room to talk to the nurse. "Ms. R just passed away. I don't know the protocol for the hospital, do you need to page the attending? I'm just a medical student." She replies that it is ok, as the patient was on comfort care. "Just go listen to the heart and lungs to confirm."

As a medical student, you are not trusted to do a whole lot. In today's chaotic environment of CYA-medicine and medical malpractice, we mainly pretend we can do things while someone holds our hand, until intern year rolls around. And a task as simple as listening to a patient's heart & lungs and feeling for a pulse should be elementary for a fourth year medical student, who has felt hundreds of pulses and listened to hundreds if not thousands of hearts. Regardless, there was a certain amount of anxiety involved in confirming a patient's death. Placing a finality on a life, even a life known to be near it's end, felt like a heavy responsibility. "I'm just a medical student."

"Time of death 18:21."

There would be no code, no crowd of people in the room, no blood staining the gown from STAT blood draws. Just myself, and my patient - a patient I had never even talked to. This was a different death than what I was used to. Some would say a good death. But the intimacy of the moment, especially considering it happened while I was performing the physical exam, struck me.

I page my neuro attending to tell him the news. He breaks the mood with some levity: "Well don't go see of the other patients now... I thought they were supposed to be healing hands!"

I looked down at those healing hands.

Onwards and Upwards

Jeesh, I've been really slacking on this blogging thing. Probably because my life has been incredibly uninteresting the past month slaving away in honor to the boards gods. So I successfully (I think) navigated the travails of Step 2 and its assorted clinical vignettes and fake patients. The second romp with the Step exam was not nearly as stressful or interesting as the first go. More a matter of knowing what you have to do, then going and doing it. And yes, Step 2 CS is as big of a joke as everyone makes it out to be.

This month is neurology, which has turned out to be a quite the neurocation. Which means I've replaced qbank and first aid with monday night football and hulu. I'm already starting to feel that 4th year senioritis sink in.

First residency interview invite finally trickled in today. The residents warned me that in ENT things happen late, so while my classmates have been racking in the interviews I've been obsessively checking MyERAS to see "Available, but not yet retrieved" over and over again. After a month of hearing only crickets, it's nice to finally start getting some movement. So it's back to twiddling my thumbs and hitting refresh on my cell phone email every 30 minutes.

Btw, blog crossed 50,000 visitors this week. Pretty freaking surreal if you ask me. Thanks to all who follow this site and pretend to enjoy the content. Never thought when I started this thing it would generate such attention. Y'all are great!

Retro

So this month has been a blast from the past. Like all fourth year medical students in our fine nation, I've been spending the past week buffing, fluffing, proofreading, and shining my residency application. It brought back many a "fond" memory of 2006 when I was going through a similar process applying to medical school. And just like before, I'm stuck in that weird limbo now where everything is submitted, there's nothing left to do, and now it's a matter of waiting, and waiting, and waiting. As someone whose past four years have been filled with things to plan, things to do, things to prepare for... it's a strange feeling.

"Fortunately" I have Step 2 to keep me busy this month, which involves plenty of QBank and First Aid. It brings back many a "fond" memory of 2009 and preparing for Step 1. Luckily, none of the same anxieties this time around. But I'm back to my favorite spot at my favorite Starbucks, highlighters in hand. God knows how I did this for two whole years.

Luckily, only another 10 days of this then I'll literally be out of things to do. Who knows what I'll do then, I sure don't.

Empathy, Tragedy, and Progress

She was 28 years old when she first noticed the spot on her tongue.

Red and bleeding, it resembled a pinpoint ulcer along the left lateral border. She went to her doctor, with understandable concern. And he reassured her it looked like a small aphthous ulcer. He told her if it did not get better, or got larger, to come back and see him.

Shortly after that, she became pregnant with her third child. And as anyone would in that situation would likely do, concerns of small aphthous ulcers were placed into the back of her mind as her and her husband went about planning the new addition to their family. Months went by, until one day in her third trimester, she was brushing her teeth and noticed blood on the toothbrush. She took a look at her tongue again, only this time to find a large hard mass in place of the small red spot from before.

What followed was more doctors visits, biopsies, referrals, and a diagnosis... squamous cell carcinoma of the left lateral tongue. She was told there would need to be surgery, but not for another few weeks until her baby was safely delivered.

The baby was safely delivered.

It was the morning of her operation when our paths first crossed. I introduced myself to her, and the entirety of her large, supportive family in the pre-op room. I made small talk, and she spoke in articulate words with a slight British accent. I asked if she had any questions, and she shook her head no.

Back in the operating room, it was business as usual. Help transfer the patient to the OR table. SCDs on. Bovie pad on. Extra blanket on. Warm air circulating. She succumbs to the general anesthetic. Intubation successful. Rotate table 180 degrees. I go out to scrub with the attending and resident, yellow iodine dripping down my forearms into the sink. Sterile towel. Sterile gown. Gloves. Spin. Prep the operative field.

We are finally ready to begin, and we finally get a good look at the tumor. It it large, extending from the lateral edge nearly to the tip. Fingers of white parasite extending deeper into the tissue.

Calmly, the operation commences. According to the pre-operative MRI, it looked like the tumor did not creep too deep. The hope was to get in, get clean margins, and close primarily, leaving her enough residual tissue that her speech and swallowing would be largely unaffected. The dissection proceeds around the mass, and finally the bovie tip penetrates out the opposite side. Frozen sections are sent off to pathology, and we breathe a sigh of relief for the moment. We sit and absorb ourselves in the BB King playing from the iPod. We have a discussion about how much we enjoy the blues.

The phone rings, pathology on the other end. "Frozen sections show margin passing through tumor." In the passing 3 hours, more tissue was taken, more sections were sent, more phones ring, and more swear words penetrate the soft, solemn blues of BB King wafting through the air. The partial glossectomy transforms itself into a hemoglossectomy, which creeps towards a near total glossectomy with each positive margin. Finally, margins are clear and we close, folding the thin strip of remaining tongue over onto itself and securing it with the appropriate number of half hitches.

I am reminded on my last question to her before the operation, when she simply shook her head and smiled. What brings me back to that moment is that for the next few days, her sole mode of communication involves those same left-right, upwards-downwards motions. Any pain? Shake no. Comfortable? Shake yes. Ok, more of the same today. Try to get out of the bed. She turns out to be quite lucky in some ways. Her swallowing was intact. And she will eventually speak again, though not without a heavy lisp and not until the burns of the radiation therapy subside and many months of speech therapy are completed.

There were two things that stuck out to me as particularly profound about this case, about this mother of three.

First occurred during those nauseating hours in the OR as frozen section after frozen section returned with tumor as we burrowed deeper into tongue tissue. With each subsequent resection, I could not shake the feeling of how horribly I felt for the patient, that we were slowly robbing her of her chance at a normal life. Part of that is good, I think. It means these past four years of medical school have not robbed me of those intimate emotions, of the ability to feel empathy for the person prepped and draped in front of me. But I was also struck by how calmly and confidently the attending surgeon, a man I greatly respect and admire, went back to work with each setback... steadfastly marching with tenacity towards negative margins. He knew the data, but more importantly he had lived the data in his many years of practice. He knew that if we did not get clear margins, this woman in front of us would be robbed of her chance to see her children grow old. So he could bury those emotions in order to do what is necessary. Me, I could not yet detach myself from those feelings of horror, because I was not yet convinced it was necessary. Quite bluntly, I have not seen enough people die to be convinced.

It reminded me how much time and space still yet separate myself, inquisitive pitiful fourth year medical student, from the title of surgeon. Because in that situation, I'm not sure I could have done what was necessary. That was humbling to realize.

The second profound moment came the next week in clinic when the attending, chief resident, and myself saw the name of a 32 year of woman on the schedule for follow-up. She too had developed a tongue cancer noticed after becoming pregnant. She too required an operation and radiation. We got to talking, and the chief resident remembered another young woman from her second year of residency who had a tongue squamous cell. We look at her chart and notice she was pregnant. "Interesting," the attending states, and we go to see our follow-up patient. Somehow the conversation turned to what we were discussing earlier, and the patient states she also knew another young woman in the south part of the state who had tongue squamous cell. The momentum of the conversation between the three of us accelerated throughout the day. By the end of clinic, we had assembled a list of 9 young pregnant women with tongue cancer who had been operated on in the past several years. Questions floated about to the tune of the scientific method. Why pregnancy? Why are we seeing more of these tumors? What's different about these tumors? Are there unique ways of approaching treating them?

And so a hypothesis was born. And a plan. There would be a study. IRB protocols and special stains and information databases and eventually a publication. And hopefully... progress. And I thought that all is not so horrible after all.

She's high maintenance.

There's a dangerous new mistress in my life that's been sucking up all my time I would have been writing on here, and her name is "ERAS". I know, sexy.

Anyways, promise more stuff is coming soon.

Sub-I... Check.

Man, time flies when you're having fun, I guess. My four weeks on my otolaryngology sub-i were over in a flash. I have to admit, I was a bit nervous coming into the rotation. I felt like I had a fair amount of exposure to the field of otolaryngology, but any time you're making a decision to enter a field when you haven't spent dedicated time rotating through the specialty, you have to wonder if you'll end up enjoying it as much as you think you will. Luckily, I found a great experience during my rotation that reaffirmed rather than undermined my decision.

That being said, talk about a crash course of an experience. Doing a sub-i in a field that is only peripherally covered by the third year rotations, I found myself having to read quite a bit every night just to stay on top of the topics I may see in the clinic or OR the next day. Luckily, I got to rotate through a different service each week, so I could focus each week on learning one specific aspect of the field, be it head & neck, rhinology, peds, or facial plastics. That being said, I felt like the rotation was much less about showing what I knew and much more about showing my willingness to learn. Definitely a different experience than some of my friends who were doing sub-i's in general surgery, internal medicine, etc where you're expected to have mastered basic principles as a third year and graduated on to more patient management.

That being said, being a sub-i kicks butt compared to being a third year. The attendings know you are entering their field, and are much more willing to tolerate your presence and teach. You're given more hands-on opportunities. You're seen more as part of the team and less as a stranger passing through for a few weeks. Good times abound.

Some highlights from the four weeks:
- First assisting an entire anterior lateral thigh free flap
- Getting to perform a trachesotomy on my own
- Pulling a popcorn kernel out of a 3 year old kiddo's ear
- Draining 350cc's of pus out of a patient's neck who has a post-op infection (I'm afraid to admit... I love I&D's)
- Becoming known as "the PEG man" on service, and being paged specifically to come put one in
- First assisting an entire rhinoplasty with rib cartilage harvest
- First time getting to use the microdebrider
- First time getting to play with the DaVinci robot
- First time getting to shoot the laser

But, all good things must come to an end. My sub-i wrapped up and now I'm off on an away rotation. Living in a different, large city with only a small furniture-less room and a twin sized bed to call home. But still otolaryngology, so I can't complain. Grin.